63.

That could easily be number 1 on the list of things I really,

REALLY did not want to know this week.

62.

Things are different.

61.

It's truly a lame thing
when your thoughts are so awful
you're afraid to share them in your own

blog. It's all negative,
so envious, and bitter that I
feel guilty. I'm not a very good friend.

60.

robotic
perhaps

59.

It's interesting... you
are interesting.

Infatuation with a dying
man. Dumb.

I miss my friends.

I miss you.

Also, I'm going to see Parker today.
I'll wear an extra sweater, just to make him
smile.

58.

feelings make things complicated,
explaining feelings is even more complicated.
I have trouble articulating my thoughts and
ideas, taking them from my head
and making them open
for people.

awkward when you read that,
because I was afraid to know what you'd
think
or feel, which turns out it's no
big deal to you, which was what I was aftaid to find out
(hurt my heart a bit...)
But that's not a bad thing.
I don't want you bothered. I only want you to feel how you feel.
Just, sometimes, ignorance is bliss.

No hostility involved... I don't know
how I can convince you that I
have no ill thought of you
at all. I wasn't being hostile...

Please keep me. I'm just bad at words. Get it?

57.

I finally did the right thing.