29.

everyday, you confirm my worst fears,

and i'm selfish enough to want you to have

only me. but we're so many miles apart

that it's impossible to think

maybe you WON'T forget about me.

you already started...

28.

panic attacks and a loss of feeling in

brain, trying to want to recover, trying to

stay where i am, continue feeling bones stick

out of my body, because the body isn't thin

enough. not think enough for treatment,

not thin enough to be sick yet. ED talking, but

what is the difference anymore?

every 3 minutes, tears, panic,

diet pills... did i really buy some?

dreaming, of course... how could i waste my money on

something to foolish

so dangerous.

how do i get out of my life?

i can't handle this anymore.